It’s the strangest thing to be where your at and not knowing what to do. But being unable to do nothing. It causes a massive conflict. I find myself seeking ways to get in contact with people I’ve never met before. They’re my reference. Unspoiled. Neutral. I can only do this for a certain amount of time before I start to think they really get to know me. Because when that happens, they’re just like anyone else. And it’s hard to trust someone that really knows who you are. I start useless conversations to avoid the space I’m in and ignore the time that’s left. Though I’m not really busy thinking about why I’m doing what, I’m smart enough to see I’m not doing anything on any long terms here. We’re just eachothers splitsecond snapshot that causes a glimpse of happiness when we’re aching for it. Still, I was wondering. Can’t I just skip all this and call it a day?

Tomorrow will be different….